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我那一点粑粑东西really? 13 febrero 我们家的新毛毛小毛毛于这个月2 号出生， 本来预产期是2月15 号的毛毛不愿意做猪宝宝， 硬在农历年之前抢着横空出世， 杀个大家措手不及！毛毛的提前报道使得这些做爸爸妈妈外公外婆爷爷奶奶的乱了手脚，所以我们可爱的毛毛现在还没有大名一个，连小名都没有！ 大家统统叫她毛毛！我妈妈，毛毛的奶奶，叫她小毛毛！ 出生时六斤二两的毛毛现在已经七斤多了，据说喜欢吃手指头， 也会笑了。 据毛毛的爸爸（我老兄现在是爸爸啦）以及外婆 （佳佳姐姐的妈妈）说， 毛毛长得很像她小姑我！！！ 大家的头衔也都变了，一切以毛毛为重，比如说，我哥哥已经丧失了自我，他的唯一头衔现在是“毛毛的爸爸”。佳佳姐姐的爸爸，一个蛮神气的中年商人，现在也只有代称一个，毛毛的外公。 我当然也成了“姑姑”。 可惜毛毛的出世意味着我的时期的结束， 我在毛毛的爸爸爷爷奶奶心中， 从“家里的小女儿”变成了“某位在国外读书的亲戚“，掉价掉得不听见！！ 呜~~ 但是，我还是好高兴啊。我希望我们家的毛毛永远可爱健康快乐。 以及对佳佳姐姐的致敬！谢谢她为我们家又添一名新生力军！！佳佳姐姐辛苦了！ 附玉照一张： 30 enero Grad school updateWell, all together I applied 10 schools. I have heard back from five of them, three interview invitations and two rejections. Five more to wait! The ones have sent invitations: Mayo Graduate School - Molecular Neruoscience New York University: Neuroscience; University Chicago: Neruobiology The ones F**king rejected me: University Washinton, Seattle; Cold Spring Harbor; The ones I am still waiting to hear: MIT: Brain and cognitive Science University Pennsylvania: Neuroscience Columbia: Neuroscience UC Berkeley: Neuroscience Northwestern: Neurobiology So..... anyway...how is everybody doing? 06 diciembre 寒假暂不回家了跟大家道个歉，刚刚取消了机票， 寒假不打算回来了。
我男朋友RUAIRI的父亲上个周日心脏病突然去世了，RUAIRI 伤心直至，并且现在家里唯一的男人。此时此刻，他无比需要我在身边，不仅是精神上支持，我也帮他搭理一切杂务。所以。。。。再说吧。。。。
20 noviembre this is thanksgiving again 又是感恩节假，众所周知的补功课的日子来了。本人一般是比较不错的，但是这个学期一直在忙考博的事情，修的他妈的又尽是些非专业课，所以只能痛苦在学校补拉下的功课。幸好其他专业的教授还通情达理，看我平时也还努力，又是个毕业生，所以让我尽情的补。 放假前一天，德文教授给我一张单子，告诉我那些功课我拉下了。我一看， OH MY FUCKING GOD， 一个学期总共才57篇功课，老娘我没交的居然达到37篇之多。 倒你屋里的德语， 于是用了整整两天， N （N 大于20）多小时总算补了下来，搞得现在中文英文哈不认得。
更讨嫌的事情是申请学校， 真是痛苦。。。。这里就不用语言表达了，总之我都不想读了。。。。
爱。。。等下在说，老娘真是还有N 多PAPER WORK 要搞。。。。。 28 octubre the last 7 daysOK 只有一个星期了， 下个星期六这个时候我就在考场了。那么我这么近四年来熬得N过个夜以及所有暑假的实习就马上要兑现拉， 哈哈。
鬼类， 谁知道是不是沦落到那哈梭梭的地方去读博。。。。
恩。。。。还是有一点紧张别。。。。因为这次是考专业啊。。。。。真讨厌。。。。
上个星期考基本的时候 （有点像国内高考哈，语数外，加文或理科）， 我到是一点不紧张。。。只想拉考完去见我男朋友。。。。
结果呢，语言 （不好说语文把，因为是英文）哈哈， 他门笑我破了考研考博的记录。。。。
因为我非常非常强， 我的数学考了800分， 满分。。。强吧
当然落， 我的语言拉。。。哈哈。。。只有410分。 倒。。。。。
我男朋友来接我问我成绩（这个曾经的文学系的） 把我劈头就否定了，他跟我他不相信我只哪了那么一点。。。。我到是不惊讶，我又不搞国哈东西，诶，我的母语不是英文诶。。。靠。。。我考博数学拿了满分诶，，怎么没有看见一点表演。。。。
最搞笑的是， 回来跟教授门报告， 一个物理教授， 副的，还不到三十，跟我说他跟我考得一样的分，只不过他数学是790， 语文是420。。。我根他关系好，狂笑他，嘿， 你的母语可是英文。。。。
不关怎样， 专业考试才更重要，我都要封了，听听我这门专业的名字 “BIOCHEMICAL AND CELLULAR BIOLOGY AND MOLECULAR GENETICS”长吧，那天领了模拟考试，靠， 有辞海厚， 我还以为是买一送一能， 27 octubre THIS KIND OF LIFE I didn't think it could get worse, oh, of course it did.
There was a kid named Austin, a little 20-year old boy with a rather small frame and honey brown hair. He skateborads, smokes, talks aggressively during discussion classes. No I dont know him, but because he is gone he suddently became such a vivid figure to us.
Austin's thing made me down even more. 05 octubre updating personal informationyo...I could not stand myself decieving everyone with age "20" no more....it is disgusting of me.... 28 marzo Going home informationI am too lazy to tell everyone individually when I am going home. But, the news is, I am going home! The following are my schedules:
May 9th: leave cincinnati;
May 10th: arrive Beijing, see my brother, cousin, best friend;
May 12th : back to Changsha
May 24th: back to Beijing
May 25th: back to cincinnati....
then I will spent sometimes with my babe, and go to Rochester for my intership on May 28th, spending 10 weeks there. and then....then...haha!!! I am going to France with my babe!!!! 20 febrero no titleFor velatine's day, I was at school and he was at work. He sent me a mini rose plant through the UPS. Well, compared to other girls with just the flowers, now I have to keep this god damn thing alive!
Midsemester break I spent at his place. We got in the fight, for absolute night of course, right before I left. He also knew how to make me happy. He asked me, wanna to go France with me in August?
Yes! Baby! Yes! 14 enero Casablanca"of all the gin joints, in all the towns, in all the world, she had to walk into mine."
----------Rick, Casablanca
We were watching the movie, Monday night, after getting back from his friends Josh and Sarah's apartment. He said, babe, lets go watch Casablanca.
He looked at me, here is looking at you, kid.
The next morning he drove me home, he said, of all the libraries, in all the schools, in all the towns, you had to walk into mine.
Thats my library now, just let you know, I told him, you graduated almost two years ago, you remember?
Yeah, maybe it is not that improtant to remeber the day he left, but I think I am going to remember these sweetest things he said to me after the Casablanca.
A kiss is not a kiss...... 04 enero 又一次吵架了，哭了，赌气了，他又哄了，我又道歉了， 於是又和好了，又甜甜蜜蜜讲电话了，又开始算还有多少小时可以见面了。
又一次吧。
跟他生气，闹，哭。
不过都是为了爱。
幸好他还是爱的，不然我也不会哭了 。 03 enero 还是一样爱我，爱我还是可以伤害我。
你说的 话让我心寒，让我哭泣。
还是愿意爱你，还是不愿意就此分离就此放弃，尽管知道明明就快要结束了。
天这么亮，大概没有人愿意像我这样爱了吧。
幸好生活里还是有其他值得等待 的东西。也许人生就是这样不可能完美，如果你可以放弃我去追寻生活其他的的东西，我也觉得我的生命里有更加值得我努力去追寻的东西。 07 diciembre at the end of this yearI always write down the day before I take notes in class/.
Just noticed that 2005 is almost over.
This decade is half way through.
isnt weird? Almost make fun of the 80's style as it was 10 years ago. No, it was actually 20 years ago now.
School is always crazy. Studied alot
With Ruairi...getting serious as I said. And...of course I am still being a drama queen, like I always do...today cired, another day wanted to break up...then another day want to see other people at the same time....good thing is that he keeps up with me. He loves me, he knows I am just asking for attention, and the reason for that? cuz I love him.
Mommy will come to see me... got her green card...my is coming....
over all...2005 is a pretty good year....
I took many good classes...felt like a realy chemist more and more....finally got together with the man I always wanted....lost 15 pounds...and I am happy. 05 diciembre Final is coming, upload some picsWell...things are going....
This is a weird semster...Five upper level classes, lost 10 pounds
Got really serious with Ruairi.....
well... 10 octubre my lifeit seems like I am the only one who is not suffering for love....
being love is great!!!
I dont care you call me corny! 09 octubre the letter he wrote to me...I cried like a babeDear Xiao, It is time for me to write to you, I think I was really insensitive Sunday morning and I want you to forgive me. I still am an asshole sometimes and you know that. But whatever I said doesn't change the love I feel for you and it doesn't change the fact that I need to see you often because without someone to take care of me physically and emotionally I become even more insensitive, and you.....well you do such a good job of taking care of me in more ways than one. You know, I haven't been serious with anyone for a few years, but this.....this is a nice transition because you're someone who I can take seriously. I don't know why you feel so strongly about me, someone who drinks lots of beer and eats corn and whose neck is always red and is horny all the time, but I appreciate how sweet you are to me and it makes me want to be as sweet as lotus seed cake right back to you. As you have said, when we first dated I said some really mean things, because I didn't take it seriously and I felt like I had to be so insensitive so that you would understand. I wonder if you think I treat you differently now to make up for the way I treated you before, or so that you'll trust me. Well that's not why I squeeze you and tell you that you're pretty and kiss your neck before we make love. I remember one time your freshman year when I was being mean and you were so upset that you were shaking; you told me that you needed lots of affection. I just like making you feel good Xiao, its something I can do well and it reminds me that I have feelings also, even though I tried to act as if I didn't for a long time. I still am afraid of committment in many ways. Who knows what will happen to us? Maybe you will be married to a Chinese businessman by christmas, or maybe we'll end up having 6 babies together, or maybe only 2 babies, or maybe it won't work more than a few months. But I do love you baby and I need your sweet touch in my life. I know you have your doubts sometimes and if I have to keep proving my feelings to you I will. love, Ruairi 09 septiembre I want to be freeRadiohead has a song I listen all the time, or Jumana plays it for me all the time. I like one line of its lyrics: I want a perfect body, I want a perfect soul.
I always understand it and say it in my heart: I want a free body, I want a free soul.
I want to be free, from everything.
When I was watching the fireworks with Ruairi, I suddenly told myself that, and I cried. Yes, I just want to be free, with nobody. At that moment, I don't even want him. I want nothing but freedom, the absolutely spiritually free.
I was reading the << The Great Influenza>> by John Barry. There was a whole section about William Henry Welch. Typical scientist histroy book, non-fictional. But I got suddenly attracted by these lines:
He was free
not just alone but free
free of entanglement of people
free of encumbraces of property, utterly free
He was free to do extraordinary things. 06 septiembre goddamn it, you finally said itI havent been sleeping very much recently, weight dropped like crazy.
Nothing special is going on, it is always school, writing report till early in the morning.
But still squeezed a weeked to see him. It was worth it. Yes it is.
He told me , he loves me.
I thought I was hallucinating when I heard it, I was like " what did you just say"
He looked me, with his blue eyes, he said , you heard me.
No, I shaked my head like crazy , no no no no no , please tell me what you just said.
He lowered his head, kissed my cheek, send his words right next to my ear, slowly and softly: I love you, xiao."
well, what can I say.
We watched fireworks on a boat on Sunday night, a typical rich upper middle american family activity, his dad was drunk, with all his friends, that was nice. I hold his hands, I enjoy every every second we spend together.
Ruairi, babe, I love you too. I love your curly hair, your lovely blue eyes, your great great personality. You are the first and only guy make me feel like a woman. I cant stop myself being so so so attracted by you. 29 agosto school timeschool started last week,and I have gone insane..........
I study about 16 hours every day......
these are the classes I am taking this semester:
Thermodynamics and Kinetics;( my dear Dr. Paul teaches it)
Inorganic Chemistry;(really not interested..)
Advanced Analytical Chemistry; (atcually a machine fixing class...)
Developmental Biology;(very interesting...talking about how a embory cell become a fully matured life)
Immunology.....(a little gross, but also interesting)
I feel like dying |
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